Entries from April 2007 ↓

On the Enneagram of personality I am a 4 with a five wing. Fours with five wings are introspective, moody, analytical, melodramatic, melancholic, sensitive, romantic, artistic, addictive, searching … tend to feel as if something is always missing, oscillate between feeling defective at a core level and feeling distinctly special and unique even in a superior way and sometimes for identical reasons as they felt defective.

Fours struggle with the transition from the really deep connections we are capable of (and crave) back to “ordinary” practical communication “ok, but what do you want to eat?” and even worse to disconnecting, ie: having to walk away or say goodbye after a connection. I feel this difficulty especially around the eyes. This difficulty with emotional transitions I think is one of the factors that can lead to fours getting into a pattern of being either fully on or fully off in connecting, our eyes functioning as a major component of our on/off switch.

When I started reading descriptions of a Four it was like getting punched in the stomach. I couldn’t believe how accurate it was for me. I felt embarrassed actually. Since then I’ve read just about every Enneagram of personality book/article I could find and feel like I have learned a lot about myself which in turn has helped me to grow.

Taking one of these online test is not the best way of discovering your number or getting the most from the personality Enneagram. The best way is to get a good personality Enneagram book, read through all of the type descriptions until one of them freaks you out with how much it nails your hidden agendas.